Jaded at Work

Super mental blocked now, been spending the entire day rushing the (what else but urgent) Press Release for a Dubai distributor. Almost done, but just don't have the motivation to conclude it yet. Sigh..

Finally got my belly belt yesterday at Paragon. I know it's a little late, but I just don't wish to see the pair of white slim cut pants go to waste. Sis bought it from US for me leh, so I hope it can still last me for another 2 months+ before I pop.

And talking about time, I'm starting to get all the jitteries cos' I realised I only have 88 more days to go!! How? How? Not sure if I can cope with labour, not sure if I will cringe when the baby cries, not sure if I can be a good mummy....oh no..oh dear...*panic*

Shopping list this wkend:
1. 2 x nursing bras
2. Foldable changing mat
3. Extra set of mattress cover and pillow + bolstercase for bb Goh

The rest, I guess I will get them slowly over the next few weekends bah.

So excited, the new furnitures are coming next week and Hubby Goh gave special instructions that I must not be at home to witness cos he pantang *gosh* Till then the following weekends will be spent washing the bb's clothes and accessories to standby and get ready.

The next checkup is dued next week and I'm hoping that all goes well. BB goh's kicks are getting stronger that sometimes I will go "ouch ouch" when I'm the phone with his daddy in the office..naughty naughty. I'm really curious to know who he will take after..me or the daddy..haha...oh well, anyway, everyone claims that hubby goh and I both look the same, so I guess there will be no sweet surprises? hehe...

Work Rants

Went through a rollercoaster ride last week at work. It was a joke that all the hoo-has were created cos' of some nitty issues on flight and hotel recommendations by an Indian travel agent which upsetted the petty Managing Director in India. And things did not get any better when the Sales Director who was accompanying him on the trip was fanning the fire with more fumes. He was the one who approved all arrangements in India but sadly, he turned the table and put the blame on me for not consulting his local sales guys before making all the decisions.

I'm speechless. It's like when all things went on well, credits were not given to me. But when things got hitches, fingers were pointed at me for being the sinner of all sinners in the company!

And it was so hypocritical! The Sales Director came to my room earlier and asked if I'm currently on great pressure. WTF! Are you gloating on me or what?

And what's worst, one of my gals committed an unwanted mistake for making the wrong encryption for a trophy! Not only did the MD jumped mad, it was sheer embarrassment handing the wrong trophy to our customers too! I cannot tolerate such old school mistakes in my team and though I didn't lecture the two gals, I made sure my point is communicated to them and they do not commit such childish mistakes again for future events. I mean everyone makes mistakes and we learn from mistakes, I'm forgiving, but not the Management.

I dunno, I just dun seem to be able to take all these shit crap complaints anymore. Once these come, all energy will be focused on war-fighting, and mind you, it's war-fighting with the internal staff, not external, and the world just surrounds this issue, till one party is pacified and happy with the explanations and rectification actions.

Am super sianz and just counting the days I "pop". I can do just this much and I can only try my best to do it right. Want something more? Get someone else to do it and I'm more than happy to leave this place for a more human-friendly environment.

I hate this company.

Hiccups

Starting to feel BB Goh's hiccups in the womb a couple of days back. They feel like small spasms in the belly, continuous tappings in the pelvis area, damn cute.

Was checking the internet on the cause and is pleased to know that baby hiccups are completely normal. It's just a fetal reflex that is similar to us, and only the mature fetuses will hiccup as hiccups rely on the development of the central nervous system. And it could be a response to fetal drinking or fetal breathing, which causes the flow of amniotic fluid in and out of the lungs, stimulating the diaphram to contract. Good thing to also know that some researchers even suggest that hiccups are actually soothing to the babies, and help them to relieve a variety of pressures on their lungs and organs.

So, no worries at all!

Anyway, we went to do more shopping at Ikea last evening. I'm almost reaching the 3rd tri, so better to get all the necessities before I turned bulkier and lazier. Hehe. Spent a whopping $700+ for the 2 items as well as some storage boxes and decor items for BB Goh's room. Will be starting to pack his tiny clothes and stuff in the drawers and shall see if there's a need to buy more. The bed is for the confinement lady and will be BB Goh's future bed, hopefully the mattress we have fits..haha..

Still has a couple of stuff to buy..sigh..how come so many things to buy huh? Like neverlasting...electric airport, car seat, diapers, toiletries...etc....aiyo...headaches...

Robinsons just started their Nursery Fair, will be checking out next week. The Taka one is a disappointment, nothing much and discounts are not hefty either. Boy, I'm sounding more and more like an auntie now! Grrr....

Nov Mummies Meet Up

I don't usually do this, but thought it will be quite fun meeting up with those people I chatted in the forum all these while. They are apparently the Nov mummy to bes (MTBs), and we are all "popping" in the same month, having our edds a few weeks or days apart.

We met up at Ellenborough Market Cafe at Merchant Court for buffet dinner. There were 10 of us this time round, could have been more but some just couldn't make it for that date.

Here are the pretty glamour MTBs! Some of the cafe customers were quite amused with our table of all preggies...haha...



We discussed about breast pumps, weight gain, baby names, antenatal lessons, food craves and alot more...so interesting!



It's such a coincidence that one of the ladies is Hubby Goh's colleagues, sitting in the same office as he is (the one on my left)! Haha...Hubby Goh, you beware, "I am watching you"...



I think the ladies would love to do a 2nd meetup again, to make sure that we catch up again before we are due for delivery. Hope there will be more joining us that time. And hope, I'm not the 2nd eldest in the group by then...so sad leh, the oldest in the group is this lady who's 2 yrs my senior, but she already had 2 boys and this is her third. Me? Over 30 liao and only my first! Boohoo....but a good thing that one of the gals commented that I look younger than my age, so ok lah, at least there's some consolation here. Hee..

So Much to Blog, So Little Time

There are so many updates to blog about, but yet can't find a decent time to sit and note them down.

1. Heard news that Ser had a miscarriage. I had a shock and subsequently felt sad for her since I know she wanted this baby so much. And since she didn't break both good and bad news personally to me, I didn't think it was appropriate for me to approach her directly to discuss about this. Hubby Goh advised me to put the grudge and anger behind me and just patch things up with her and offer her some comfort. Had a debate with him over dinner, and I reckon I will just leave things as it is as I dun wish to get hurt again by her thorny words. Well, in the first place, she has stopped treating me as friend (else she would have shared the news to me), she's the one who threw our 16yrs of friendship down the drain, so why should I bother? I dun wish to be always the one giving in to a friendship, it's just too tiring.

2. Hubby Goh sprained his back while brushing his teeth one morning! How amazing..haha. His back juz went "cracked" for a split second when he bended in the sink. I think I should start feeding him with milk and get him to exercise more. He is starting to show symptoms of old age...old my gosh! And his son is not even born yet! Haha..my poor Hubby Goh.

3. Had durian cravings last night at mum's place after dinner. The whole family went to the market, hoping to find some durians for me, but alas, uncle siao's stall was closed! Bro-in-law didn't want to see me so disappointed, so he decided to bring us all for a joy ride to ABC Market for durian hunting. Yehh! All in all, we bought 3 猫山王 durians at $60 and I went home feeling happy and contented. I lurve lurve my family!!

4. Hubby Goh broke news that he has to leave for a KL trip next wkend with his Boss. Sob sob..I is gonna be lonely soul, sulking at home with Baby Goh. Maybe take this chance and bring his car out for a ride and wreck his angel eyes? *evil grin*

5. We have confirmed Baby Goh's English name, having eliminated many of the choices we have done research online. As usual, we will only broadcast on the day he arrives..not now...hehe..

6. We have decided not to repaint Baby Goh's room as we received many feedback that it's not exactly a right move to do so now. I guess it's better to be safe then sorry. Ok, so it's time to shop for the furniture at Ikea now! Spend money again....

That's it...will blog again when I can recall more details..

What's Wrong with These People?

I hate company politics. I hate selfish people.

It's so amazing that people can approve something in a minute but when something's wrong, they can turn around and accuse us of making the wrong decision when being questioned. Where's the supposedly said teamwork?

When something's right, no one said anything. When something went wrong, it's our fault!

It's such a typical culture in here and I'm so tired of having to fight for my own rights all the time. Blame it that I'm not in their level, blame it that we are in the wrong Dept. Why is it that we always have to fight with each other? Aren't we suppose to work hand in hand to achieve the same objectives for the company?

Sometimes I just find that people here are so childish. Shouldn't it be time that they learn to grow up and deal with issues more professionally? Backstabbing seems to be the only option for them and accusing is their daily bread. Gosh, what's going on?

I'm bushed out. I want to be out of this game soon.

The REUNION Dinner

The whole gin gang of ex polymates finally met up after so many unsuccessful rounds of arrangements with each other. It was supposed to be full attendance at Stephen's place last night, but damn...Vincent had to be recalled back to his camp for night shift at the last minute.

Nevertheless, we still managed to have good food and good time together. Stephen's studio apartment at Mandarin Garderns is impressive! I like the serenity of the place and it's so self contained (got restaurant, learning centre, supermarket, etc) that it's like a small kumpung of its own! I like!

Anyway, Regine prepared a sumptuous steamboat spread for all of us. We were spoilt for choice with all the lean pork, chicken fillet, fishballs, veggies, and not forgetting Agnes' waldorf salad. Yumyum...

Since PE brought her whole troop along, we took the opportunity to camwhore with her 2 cute sons - Minghao (6 yrs old) and Mingyang (9 mths).

Stephen aka Bakero, was overjoyed as he became the "father of his two sons" last night. I tell you this guy is dying to be a papa and he is "working very hard" now so that we can expect some good news from him soon. I think he's gonna be a good father judging the way he managed the two "sons" last night.



PE (left) and her two sons. Agnes is still very much single and available though. Any takers?



I joined in the fun too...looked so FAT ya?





Time flies and we have known each other for 13yrs? It seems like yesterday that we were in poly fighting for who's doing what for a new marketing project. It's good that we are still very much in contact and I hope we will do so for the years to come.

Cheers to our everlasting friendship, folks!

At Week 24th & Day 3

Just came back from this month's checkup.

So disappointed that this month's weight gain soared to 2.2kg since the last visit. Total gain so far = 7.6kg. I still eat normal, not stuffing myself silly with carbo or sugar, dunno where the gain comes from?

For Baby Goh, he is doing well, errmm too well in fact..haha..

He now weighs 799gms. Dr Chan measured his head and commented that he's got a big head, so wants me to check if I was a big head baby or Hubby Goh. Mum said I'm not, so perhaps it's Daddy Goh! I sure hope the little darling won't be born a humpty dumpty, else I will have problems pushing him out. But Dr Chan said lucky thing I'm of bigger frame and got a BIGGER backside, so shouldn't be a problem. Thanks ah..

Here's a little peep on Baby Goh's face. He was closing his eyes, but was still kicking me non-stop while the 3D scan was going on. See his little hand near his left eye? Awwww....

The nose looks abit squashed up and flat cos' he was lying too near to me. Realised he likes this position very much cos' during the last scan, he also hid himself there. Maybe it's his comfy zome bah.



My mum wants me to re-re-confirm Baby Goh's gender again during the checkup. Dr Chan got cheeky and took this pic specially for my mum. He said if my baby is not BOY, that means the four of us (himself, me, Hubby Goh, the nurse) are all blind..haha. Tried to capture the little birdie in 3D, but Baby Goh was too shy and keep folding his legs. So cute!

The arrow is pointing at Baby Goh's "birdie"...oh no...I hope he won't blame me for "exposing" him online!



Have booked the maternity room with Glen E today. I've opted for a 2-bedder to cut cost..Hubby Goh wanted to get me the 1-bedder cos' of more privacy and cos' he could stay over during the two nights, but I reckon it's not necessary lah. The nurses there will be at my beck and call, and it's only two nights, don't have to waste those monies. I rather use the moolahs to get our little darling something :)

3 more months to go!

Simple Sunday Bliss

I love the weather today, I love how simple the day has went so far.


Woke up exceptionally early this morning as Baby Goh started his gungfu exercise at 8am. He kicked me, so I kicked Hubby Goh till he wakened and gave me a frown. Haha. We decided to head to Tiong Bahru Market for breakfast. So knowing that mummy dearest loves the food variety there, I picked up the phone while still in bed and woke everyone up at home. Hee.


I love having breakfast with my family. For the first time, Dad went all the way to get me my favourite chee cheong fun and warm soya bean milk. Mum went to queue for the peanut cake I wanted, and Hubby Goh took the queue for the famous Sharks fin Lor Mee. Yucks...sounds cruel huh, but it was quite tasty actually with all the fried flour thingy in it. I practically sat at the table like a princess, waiting to be served, and that's where I realised again how great my folks are, as compared to somebody else.. I love you both, mummy and daddy!


After the sumptuous and satisfying breakfast, Mum wanted to get some fresh fish from the wet market, so we ended buying fish (yeah, cord fish!), prawns, pork and of cos' fruits. I is happy, cos' I know Mummy is cooking up a good feast again next week for me with all these fresh ingredients she bought. Not cheap you know, I think we spent about $100 just at the wet market!!


Hubby Goh was so exceptionally funny during the marketing trip. There was so many stalls selling seafood, but just one stall which was selling some gory bloody fishes. He was so fascinated with the bloody fishes that I reckon he has spent about 5mins standing there staring! But it was after that he explained he was trying to dare himself for watching the bloody stuff at the stall so as to prepare for THE big day to come. Aye...he and his frens lah, apparently they pre-warned him that natural birth could be a gruesome sight so they wanted him to get mentally prepared so that he will not lose his guts in the delivery room. And hah! He said he will do the dad's deed of cutting Baby Goh's umbilical cord too, ermm...I'm just praying hard that he would be sober enough and not cut something else on that day..haha.


Anyway, that aside, Hubby Goh drove me to the sista's place for the wkend swim. I think I swam about 15 laps altogether today? Quite contented with my achievement, hopefully I can still maintain this when I reached the 3rd tri. Was supposed to dine with the in-law's family this evening, but the troublesome MIL called to postpone it cos' they wanted to have crabs next week and claimed that eating out for a consecutive 2 weekends is gonna cost a bomb! Well, whatever...I've decided to cook instead, teriyaki chicken wings, sausage omelette and chap chye, simple dishes just for the both of us.

Life's good :)

Fox Baby Loot

Hee, Fox having 50% sales right now, can't resist the temptation and bought Baby Goh all these:

Romper



The hankies were from John Little...socks from Fox Baby



Overall PJ



Cotton blanket..



I find that Fox Baby has more gal variety than boys, what a pity..

Anyway, I better stop buying, no place to store them all!

At Week 23

Muar's tummy at week 23.

Ignore the lines on the side, they are not stretch marks la (choy!)...I just woke up from an afternoon nap on a lazy Sunday..haha.



The navel is soon diminishing as the tummy expands. Not sure if it will protrude when the tummy stretches bigger. I certainly hope not!

My Mummy is The BEST

Missed swimming last Sunday as Hubby Goh had to work so I made my way down to the gym after work to make up for the lack of exercise.

Hmm..it's not surprising, I was the only preggie around. All eyes were fixed on me as I made my way to the treadmill, even the instructors there gave me funny stares, but hey, what's wrong, preggers also need to exercise what! Let see how long I can persevere in the gym with the growing tummy. It's getting a little challenging to lug the heavy gym bag to Vivo alone twice a week, probaby should go rent a locker for a month or two so as to lessen the bag weight.

Anyway, after gym, we went to my mum's place to pick up yummy dinner back home so that we are in time for the 10pm show on Channel U (yes, I'm addicted!). Mum cooked my favourite fried beehoon, lor-chicken, and peanut soup. It was so so yummilicious that believe it or not, I nearly teared. It could be the hormones lah, but I was really touched that mummy dearest made that effort to ring me in the office, asked what I like to eat for dinner, packed them in plastic containers, heated them again when we were ready to pick them up back home. Though it was only a small gesture from mummy, but I really felt the warm when I bring each spoon full of food into my mouth. I feel blessed to have a mummy like her and I would hope that I can be her daughter again come my next life.

Perhaps I'm too pampered by my own mummy, so I wasn't too used to the bor-chap attitude from the MIL. Am nearly 6 months preggie now, one time birdnest and 3 times fresh fish from her, you think is enough to show her concern for me or the baby? I dunno. It juz pissed me initially that she only talks but no action all the time. I remembered having severe crave for her home made tau suan when I was 3 months preggie, Hubby Goh requested her to cook but she told him to bring me to foodcourt and eat! I was dumb-folded! And I remembered Hubby Goh telling her to cook more birdnest for me, she empty-promised that she will cook the next day, but end up she brewed tonics for herself and didn't made anything for me. This time, I gave up! Well afterall she's not my mummy so I can't expect her to shower me the same amount of love my mum does.

And I think I was being blunt, but it is ME. During last night's dinner, I told hubby straight on the face that I is not happy with his parents cos' they are acting so unconcerned throughout my pregnancy. It's not that I lust for their expensive tonics or what, but as parents themselves, they should understand the needs of a pregnant woman and yah, by the way, I'm carrying their first grandson lor. Whatever it is, when baby Goh is born, I'm sure that I will not allow them to get any closer to him other than my own family. Hmpf!

Like the saying goes,

"Why give priority to others when you're only part of their options?"

So true.