My Babbles and Jabbers ;)

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Red Panty Really Works!

Must really thanks SY for her great advice to wear red panty for an interview. Last week, on hearing that I was shortlisted for the 3rd round of interview with the President, I made my way to shop for a red panty while waiting for Hubby Goh to knock off and go home together. And I'm glad I wore it yesterday, cos' I got the job!! Haha...

And I also want to thank Gohonzon for answering my prayers. Both hubby goh and I have been chanting hard everyday and set goals that I have to get a job offer by end of this month, and true enough, by the 3rd week of this month, I have two and the offer by one is so much higher than my expectation that I found it hard to reject! It's really 妙法不可思议. And with this, it gives me the motivation to learn gongyo fron Hubby Goh and of cos' share my testimony with fellow members in the next jalangah. Now, I'm juz hoping that the current company will pok me soon and give me some kinda compensation so that I can benefit from both sides. I know one shouldn't be greedy, but I just want to get back what I deserve for slogging for the company for the past 2 years+. 没有功劳也有苦劳吗...

Have not been really productive at work lately, low drive low morale, the boss has taken 2 bloody long weeks of leave to visit the Hubby in Shanghai and I couldn't even take a week's leave to spend quality time with Baby Garreth. Now my only hope is that the new company is not a disappointment and I can thrive and contribute positively with my vast experience. Travelling is still required but with mummy's assurance to take good care of Baby Garreth while I'm away, I'm sure I can manage my time well for work and family.

Goodbye to all the colleagues here, they can all rot in here for as long as they want...haha..

Tuesday, June 03, 2008

SAD

Mood has not been really good eversince J broke the bad news to me. I appreciate him revealing what the bloody management is up their sleeves this month but frankly, the truth hurts. I'm just counting the days they are asking me to leave. Told myself it may be a blessing disguise afterall as I've not been happy working there and it could be a relieved from all the misery I've been feeling all these while. There again, I was hoping I could hold on to this job and buy time before I managed to get a new job and go.

Everyone's been telling me that the job market is rosy now. But I seriously don't think so. After going to so many rounds of interviews, can't help but feel demoralised that none could make it. Everytime when an interview ends, I feel full of hope and looks forward to positive news from the company. One week gone, one month past but still I'm stucked in this freaking company! What is wrong?

3 more weeks before they decide to ask me to go. Wonder what will be the ultimate reason they will use? Not performing? Retrenched? I even had a nightmare on this last week and it kinda haunted me eversince. They are such scheming creatures; first they promoted the coordinator to executive, then they hired a coordinator to replace her, and when the AM, Product Marketing left, they said they are not hiring AMs anymore, then the freaking boss started to feel insecure and tried to put her leg in every projects we are handling, and I'm not surprised she was the person who put poison words to the Managing Director to kick me out of the company so that she can save her own rice bowl! I don't wish to curse, but I hope to remind her that what comes round, goes round, and she will get her well-deserved karma one of these days...well, probably she might get lucky not to get anything this life, but I'm sure her future generation will not. I am real sure about that.

So demoralised now that I don't even feel like coming to work. They only plan to kick me out by end of the month as they still need me to host the distributor conference next week in Chiang Mai. Was telling hubby that I pray hard for a successful show as I want them to know what they are missing by asking me to go.

Counting down the days...sigh..