Overloaded..Tonnes of Work

Oh gawd, pls just kill me.

I was only gone for 3 days and there came a heap of work that took me eons to clear!
It's gonna be an exciting last quarter for the year as we are rolling out new products, merge with the acquired company...and best part? Heard we gonna hold our sales kick-off in Macau end of the year!

Cool! Casinos here I come!! Portuguese Egg Tarts here I come!! Maybe extend a day or two to Hong Kong for some mad shopping? Or even to Shenzhen as well? hahaha...

The downside?

Aye...the 3rd Quarter Sales Review is round the corner, am presenting on behalf of the boss since she is going to be due anytime from now. Hate the bua-ing session by the sales guys, this time without my boss around, I think it's gonna be worse...sigh.

Ok, complain session ends..back to work again.

WTF.

Tribute to Ah Yit the Dearest

Some pics I found in my lappie juz now..

We were still happily celebrating Ah Yit's birthday last year..

Check out how he loved satays...every pic has him holding a stick of satay..haha..

My MIL and Ah Yit

Farewell, Ah Yit...

Got a fateful call from the hubby when I juz reached town to do some shopping alone.

Ah yit was pronounced dead at 4.45pm, we zoomed to his bedside by 5.30pm.
There he was lying motionless on the hospital bed, mouth agap, face yellowish and the white blanket all covered up to his neck.
He looked fray, he looked peaceful.
I weeped as I saw him for the last time.

Yesterday when we visited him, he was still very much alive and his BP still read 145.
But by then his both hands had swollen to 2x bigger than usual and toes all blackened cos' lack of blood circulation.
I cried, cos' it wrenched to see him in that helpless state.
We called to him, hoping that he will at least open his eyes to see us once when he yawned, but he didn't.
The hubby was recounting the good times when Ah Yit would take turns to play chess with all the grandchildren...and though he couldn't really speak his language (Shanghainese), Ah Yit was still able to converse a few words of Hokkien to all of them.

My grandparents all passed away when I was a young little gal and couldn't really understand meaning of death.
It was my first time to be so up close to a dead relative, and somehow it really hurts this time to see someone in the family passed away right in front of my eyes.
As I'm typing away, tears juz flow down like a dripping tap.
I know we should be thankful that he didn't die of any sufferings. In fact, he was still a pretty healthy old man, no cancers, no diseases, no other illnesses. He had to go cos' his organs has went on a strike after working for 93 freaking years and dysfunctioned.
Perhaps he has already lost the will to live after the bad fall a couple of months ago.
He was still lamenting why someone upstairs still refuse to take him in as he was busy munching the Polar egg tarts we bought for him.
Now, he's back in the same bed again, but this time with his last breath ended there.

Shitz, my tears seem to be flowing non stop...

I have to stop typing...

Tmr will be a busy day =(

Ah Yit, I wish you well...though you may not be with us now, you will still be very much in our thoughts...

As promised...

Pics! Loads of pics....as promised!!

Wedding Anniversary night - 19.09.06

Had sumptuous Japanese A La Carte Buffet. They serve damn good authentic sashimi and hand pressed maki...

This the mini steamboat. Though it looks juz like any ordinary udon soup, this taste super good when it's piping hot! The soup was bagus!

Awesome sashimi. The red ones are Swordfish, the white ones are Yellow Tail Fish. The latter is especially juicy and sweet and every slice juz melt in the mouth! Woooo....Oishi Des Neh!!

The chicken wings looked kinda pale huh? Trust me, they taste superb than their looks...

The smiley hubby. He was glad that we ended up at Honjin rather then Asahi in Sixth Avenue...cheap and good!

We had more! Salmon Sashimi, Tuna Sashimi, Soft shell crabs, Yakitori, Ebi Tempura...

Soft Shell Crab Maki...the last dish we could swallow...

Overall Verdict?

It's definitely worth the money! Only $34+++/person for dinner.

Honjin Restaurant is in Chow Building, somewhere along Capital Building and SIA Building.

Eve of Birthday - 20.09.06

The hubby bought this 2 cute heart-shaped strawberry moouse cakes for me...sweet huh?

Closer shot...don't you juz love it??

The Funny Card..

And ta-dah! The most expensive gift the hubby ever gave me! Currently ranked no. 1 in my overall bags collection. Hee. It has to be lor..

Birthday - 21.09.06

The colleagues bought me this yummy looking chocolate black forest birthday cake. Everyone took time off to gather in the pantry to celebrate for me..so touchie touchie...

I bought the mini chicken pies for them in return in Bugis during lunch...all kena wiped out within the 15mins!

My group of funny colleagues. In case you're wondering why they are wearing the blue robe. It's the anti-static robe lah...they are from the Production Dept. Super nice bunch of aunties, take good care of all of us in the office!

Warm Birthday Wishes

I know I have not been a good fren, good colleague or ex-colleague, or even a good DIL..

So I'm kinda taken aback today that actually these people actually bothered to remember my birth date and sent me warm birthday wishes to brighten up my day. Suddenly I juz felt so emo as I'm overwhelmed by all the sms and phone calls.

First it was MIL, then the hubby's bro.
Subsequently was SY, then an ex colleague whom I was never close to.
Thereafter got a call from the sister, she sang me a birthday song over the phone.
Then it's my mummy dearest who called to ask what I want her to cook for tonight's feast.
My boss came in to my room the first thing in the morning to wish me well when she stepped into the office.
Then comes all the close colleagues and shook hands with me [ahhh...I felt like a celebrity today!]
Cousin Theresa also msged me to stay pretty always.
And a long time ex colleague whom I used to be quite close with juz sent me this:

"I know your birthday is either today or tmr. Anyway, happy birthday and may you be blessed with good health and happiness always"

Things like that touch my heart deeply. Seriously.
I know I haven't been in touch with certain people for quite sometime, so it was rather amazing that they have still kept me in their thoughts after that long. And to think that not only that, they also took the trouble to remember my birthday and send me birthday wishes.
How awfully sweet.

I love you people, and I will try to remember all of your birth dates starting from now. Next wish list? Haha...a new PDA Phone perhaps? hahahaha...

One Year Older, One Year Wiser

Haha...one year wiser...not senile I hope..

It's my BIRD-DAY today! Happy Birthday to Myself!

I would like to apologise. I was supposed to bring my cable to download pretty pics for you today, BUT but but.....I forgot again!!

Alamak. See, I think I'm getting all senile. First sign - Short Memory.

Anyway, can I tell you how happy I am this Birthday?

Though no baby news, but guess what? I have my GUCCI bag!!!

Fwah. I tell you, I didn't expect it at all. In fact last night after shopping spree with both Jorene and Esther, back to home, I wanted to tell the hubby that I wanna give up on the handbags and let's juz save up for the money to Japan next March. Really.

So there I was all washed up getting cosy in bed, the hubby switched off the comp, went to the kitchen and returned to the room singing birthday song with hand holding a birthday cake. I is so suprised cos' you know what? I have been secretly yearning for a bday cake this year cos' it's been yonks since I last had one. And now I have a cake!! A strawberry moouse cake to be exact!

Then comes the 2nd surprise. He went to his drawer and came back with a funny Birthday card. I wish that I could post it up to you now, so that you can share the laughter with me, but arhh....another day k?

And finally, he sprung the last streak of surprise - the GUCCI BAG!!!

I screamed as he brought out the GUCCI paperbag. At that split seconds, I was thinking, GOSH!, can we bring back to the boutique for a refund? Cos' now I want the money for the Japan trip instead.

But well, too late...too late. Gucci only allows exchange, and no REFUND.

Shrugh.

I felt heart-pain...for him, for the money.

Cos' the bag burst his original budget, and he signed off the card as "BROKE HUBBY"...hahaha..

So he was telling me that he felt that it's money worth to get me the bag, since he saw how I was so mersmerized by it at the boutique. He said I deserved to be pampered and what he has bought can't beat the amount of care, love and concerns I have showered him all these years. And he said it's all worth it when he sees me happy and smiling.

Awwwwhhhh....how damn sweet. I melted..and I teared..

I'm happy. I'm happy that he bought the bag for me, but more so cos' of his gesture and thoughts. It's so blissed to be loved so deeply and to love someone.

On a greedy note, the hubby also said that I won't be receiving any more gifts from him till next year. Haha...okie lor, I replied him..cos' that's what he said earlier this year when he bought the LCD TV...keke...

Midweek Crisis

Kena elbowed by the hubby this morning on bed. This idiot has the tendency to move over to my "territory" when he's too sound asleep.

Feel so lazed today. Yawn.

The boss popped in to my room this morning and asked if I want a day off tmr to celebrate my birthday.

Nah. Birthday is juz another day to me. But I wanna take leave on Friday instead to spend some good quality time with the Hubby. No concrete plans yet. But we are definitely going to Joo Chiat for fiery hot black pepper crabs!

Haha...eat and eat...my diet plans going bonkers again.

Shall post up pics of last night's dinner soon. Forgot my cables to office today.

Hee.

Disappointment

2 more days to my 31st birthday, 3 more days to my period.

I have this strong instinct that the baby-making plans this month is yet another failure.

I can feel the PMS syndromes kicking in lately, hungry pangs, craving for food, bloated tummy and what nots. Sigh. So sad.

In fact, I've already told myself that this yr, the greatest birthday gift I wish for is be pregnant and have healthy baby. I don't need Gucci or Coach, juz to be able to conceive like normal gals out there will do. Not something difficult to ask for right?

You know, everyday when I walk on the streets, I do a count of the number of preggies spotted. Min. 3 within a hour ok? Make me so envious of them everytime. Even obese ladies can get pregnant, but why can't I?

Aye. Already told myself to relax and gave myself till end of the yr for baby-making. Let's juz wait and see...

I want a baby! I want a baby!

Coach or Gucci? What about a Trip?

I is in serious dilemma now...shall I use the money that the hubby is giving me to get a Coach bag or a Gucci bag?

Oh..if you are unaware, the money is actually for me to buy myself a birthday cum 2nd wedding anniversary gift. I have a budget of $1K to spend, if I still can't decide what I want, the offer is gonna expire end of this week. Bah! I is in panic mode now...I have exactly 5 more days to make a decision!!

Ok, here's what I've found from Coach website. Have always long for a Coach handbag to complement my Coach wallet, Coach keypouch and Coach namecard holder. This Hampton design is the latest, but believe it or not, it's all sold out in S'pore. *wail* Already went to check out both their outlets in Raffles City and Takashimaya, last night's stride in DFS was a disappointment too, they only left with the brown, which I thought it looked a little too auntie for me.


This cost $905, within the budget given...but no stock!! and I can't order online cos' they only ship to US states and requires the buyer to log in their order using a bloody US Credit Card! Fark.



This is the latest classic design from Gucci I like. But cost a freaking $1470. Burst the budget, I have to top up the balance if I really wants to buy it. Available in the Paragon branch.

How ah how?

I is not a spendthrift person, but I have been wanting to own a handbag like this for a nong nong time. But then again, it's $1K leh, not $100...can do alot of things with the money rather than buying a branded bag and sling around the shoulder everyday right?

But but...branded handbags damn chio. You agree with me yah? It bring out the status of a woman and gives her all the confidence. Sigh....I want! I want!

Then again, the money...I could have save it for our impending Japan trip next year. You know lah, Japan's not cheap. The money could at least help to pay some expenses there since we both will be exchanging mileage for the air tickets.

Aye..decisions decisions..I hate making tough decisions..

If only I marry a rich man, then I will be given no limit to the budget...buy and buy..haha...only have headaches on how many bags I want, not WHICH one I can buy with the given budget.

I is so greedy. Shake head.

On a happier note, Happy 2nd Anniversary to myself and the hubby! It's 2 solid years for us and looking forward to many more years to come! Tonight's having Japanese. The hubby don't wanna tell me where, but I love surprises ;)

We LOVE Gals' Nights!!

You know what? The dinner with the gals last Sat was fantastic. I was quite amazed at how comfy we were together though that was the first time we gals were out for the first time. Yup, we may have seen each other numerous times in past gatherings and outings, but we don't usually get a chance to sit down and chat together like the way we did that night.

And so we went to Rochester Park eventually. It was pouring like mad so Ms Lee decided to change the venue to Bugis instead. The usual fickle Ms Lee then decided that since the rain had turned to only drizzle, perhaps we could stick to our original plan and head back to Rochester instead cos' she has longed to go there. Duh...I was pretty pissed for her indecisiveness but nevertheless, I'm glad we have made the right move cos' Rochester was really a conducive area, being hidden in the woods and greens next to Buona Vista MRT.

Food was not too bad. We had buffalo wings, salad, chicken, baby back ribs...and CHAMPAGNE!! Yeh...we wine and we dine. But that's not the gist of the night. I think what made the night special was becos' it gave us opportunity to know each other better. We talked about everything under the moon (haha..not sun..cos' at night mah), about men, about family, career...etc. It was then that we realised that one of the gals' love for her partner was not really reciprocated. Before this dinner, I have always perceived her to be another of those "malaysian gals"...but there, I realised that I was wrong. Though she was only 23, she thinks like a 30 year old lady. Becos' her love for the guy is that deep, she has made several sacrificies for him. I know I could have heard only her side of story, but it was pathetic enough for me to sympathise her. To love or to be loved? I think the latter is better, cos' to love someone can sometimes be so painful. It's good to be in a position of being loved and cared for. Don't you think so?

There there was J. She was also pouring out her unhappiness with her in laws, esp. the sis in law, who is a pain in the ass. We have kinda encouraged her to have a good talk with the hubby to iron out the issues, but she said she didn't want him to be sandwiched between them or cause unneccessary tension on both side. Shrug.

So well, yeh..after that night, I went home feeling so blessed to have a hubby who loves me deeply and a set of wonderful in-laws who pampers me like their own daughter =) I is a happy gal..and I is going to cherish that.

3 Cheers for the gals! Next outing - SPA!!!

Ladies Night - Whoopie!

Juz completed 3 hrs of house chores. My, how I hate vacumning and mopping the floor. If isn't the hubby busy with his project cut-over this weekend, I would long have finished my ironings today.

Aye, anyway, he came back real late last night and went to work when the sun rise. I missed him. I know he gave me a wet muackz on my cheeks this morning before he left for work, but I juz couldn't open my eyes to bid farewell. The Turf Club event last night ended late and after packing up and stuff, only managed to reach home at 12am.

Turnout was good despite the rain and traffic jams. Was expecting only 80, but 91 came nevertheless. Of course, the MD and JASON YEO were extremely happy. In the past years, the event was done with the help of a local distributor. This year, the management decided to take a bold move and host the event alone, to capture quality resellers and have exact full control of the event.

The emcee part was smooth and good. Though the guests were more excited about the horse races, they were attentive when I was conducting games and lucky draw. I even have some guests coming to me at the end of the event, congratulating me for doing a great emcee job. They wondered if I did emcee in my previous job cos' I was natural and confident. Errmm...well....actually to be frank, I was kinda nervous and shivering inside me while on the mike. But as the flow goes, I guess I was starting to get comfy with the crowd, so I juz went with the beat and vomit out all the speech I have to do.

* a gentle pat to myself* Well done...and keep up the good work!

The ladies night, organised by the good ol' serene is onz. We are going to Rochester Park, about a stone's throw away from my place..haha. We couldn't decide to go for Da Paolo Bistro or Graze, so ended up making reservations for both. Yeah, that's how typical we are. I hope the place is nice, cos' so far reviews haven't been to kind on them. So yeh...I'm look forward to the dinner later =)

Operations Black

Everyone's in black today, dunno why. We didn't pre-arrange for the dress code for the event this evening, but still we bingo and we're all black today.

Having all the butterflies in the stomach now.

I know, it's not my virgin show, I have done even large scale shows before...but cos' this is a SINGAPORE SHOW, the particular Sales Manager is a perfectionist (*yawn*) and super critical (*fart*), so I have to ensure that my team do a good job enough to reach his ultimate high standards. One mistake make and we are bound to have another awful post mortem next week.

He said he will buy us supper after the event to reward everyone's hard work, but well, I'm not too looking forward to that. Whether or not this supper will make it, shall depend on how the event turns out tonight. I is worried, but I is will do my best. Really.

Have juz briefed the team on the program, logistics and stuff. Moving off to Turf Club at 3pm later. Hope the rain stop so that we can load the goodie bags to the van for setup. Aye, the rain has to stop by the evening, I don't want my guests to come up with lame excuses of being late or not turning up at all. Stupid people.

Good luck to me ya?

The Bimbotic Me

The mobile phone went dead last night.

What Stupid Nokia.

I juz bought it not too long in April and now it had totally no network coverage (although I'm in network covered areas!). I juz sent to the repair centre to have my memory card replaced, and now this happened.

Damn it.

Now using the hubby's spare phone. Dunno which old school samsung model is that..I don't even know how to handle it cos' the functions are totally different from Nokia. Had to call up the hubby earlier to check how should I unlock the phone and turn the phone to silent mode. He gave up and said he will help source around for a latest phone for me when I book in my Nokia for an overhaul.

*Wail* My phone's gonna go A&E liao!!

So handicapped. Sigh.

Kena Whacked

The very pregnanted lady boss is getting hay-wired recently. Probaby due to her impending birth next month, she's getting all edgy about witsy bitsy stuff in the office. Juz last evening, she sent 3 emails to the entire marketing team, telling us off, she EXPECTS us to buck up on effective communications with the various depts, be more pro-active, ya dah ya dah....

Sigh. Give us a break can?

If she's unware, we are already quite overloaded with all the upcoming events and product launches next couple of months. We are packed to the brim everyday, rushing this out for that region, rushing out that for another region. Requests are everlasting....and we the 3 mad women have been trying our best to the never ending deadlines. And then her? She only sits in her room and forward these demoralising emails to us. WTF right?

I know she means business and work...but she shld know when's the good time to say what. I know she wants to maintain certain standards for our dept, but look, we are already trying our utmost best and still trying very hard. I know she wants to cover us so that we won't get whacked by the Sales Team, but hey, don't always put it in the way that we are at fault, she has to also understand that sometimes the Sales Managers are trying to be difficult and asking for the sky.

Sigh. I hate to be sandwiched in between her and my gals.

Next job, I swear that I wanna only report directly to the CEO or MD...best if I can just work alone, no one to report to me. Not that I dun enjoy responsibilities, but having to balance well responsibilities and overwhelming workload is something not possible. Unless you give me full management duties, with all the planning and what-nots and take away hands on and execution works, I shld be fine.

Arrghh...back to work...event this Friday!! cold sweat!!

Things Not Looking Too Good

Skipped lunch today to drop by at the hospital to check out Ah Yit.

He is not looking good.

With tubes inserted into his nose, breathing supported by the machine, feeding tube on his left hand, it totally wrenched my heart to see him in this state. Since Sunday he has been unconscious. His right hand is swollen from the feeding needle for the past 3 days and they juz changed it to his left hand this morning. The nurse wrapped both his legs with soft sponge to protect them from abrasions as he couldn't move all these while.

He looked so fray, so helpless. Even his limbs felt cold when I touched. My eyes were moist seeing him...somehow I wish that he could juz go into peaceful sleep and be eased from the pain and suffering now....

The doc said his "machines" have worked for 93 good years and has now disfunctioned. We have to be prepared for the worst and it's juz a matter of time to see him go.

Ah yit..if you are listening, don't hang on anymore, let go..juz let go...to the other side of the rainbow...to the beautiful heaven up there. We will remember you in our hearts as you watch us from above...

*Sob*

It's the Start of A New Week Again

Aye, weekend juz zapped and go, I still havent' rest enough...the new medicine the doc prescribed made me terribly drowsy and I slept in most of the times over the weekend.

Poor old ah yit (hubby's grandpa) was admitted to SGH again last Friday. We planned to visit him at his place after work, but MIL called and said that ah yit was having high fever and they have called an ambulance to bring him to the hospital. When we reached, ah yit was still in the A&E, it was starting to pour, so we decided to drive MIL back home first and wait for news at home while 2 other relatives stayed on. Wanted very much to visit him on the weekend but the hubby has to work on both days. MIL said that the doc told us to "prepare for the worst", so today after work, we will go check him out.

Ah yit is 93 this year. Though he's in bad shape now but I'm still hoping that he can pull through and live past 100.

Ah yit jiayou! I know you can do it!

Sengmook Going Silence Today

Woke up this morning and realised that I lost my voice.

All thanks for the branded durians. Now I can't even utter a proper sentence.

Urgh. Have to see the doc again. I hate taking medicine.

Durians Anyone?

The hubby brought me to Geylang last Sunday and bought me these orgasmic durians after our dim-sum dinner.

Check out these yellow-flesh mouth-watering sinful yummy things!

These are not the usual D24 or XO durians you see in most stalls, these are the popular branded Mao Shan Wang (read: Cat Mountain King) breed. They cost $15 for a friggin kg...2 miserable durians set us back by $42!! Expensive huh? But I tell you, it's all worth every single cent. Once you have it, you never want to go back to eating those cheapo durians. Fyi, this breed is only available once a year. So get it before the season ends this month!

The Refurbished Botantical Garden

It has been eons since I last stepped into the Botanical Garden (BG)!

Many a times, it's juz pure cruising pass the place to make my way to Orchard. So last Sunday, without making any concrete plans for the day, the Hubby and I made the impromptu trip to BG to check out its new look.

In the past, if you drive, you have to park at a distant carpark away from the garden. Now? Well, they created this basement carpark right at the foot of the garden. Beside it is this normal foodcourt you will see everywhere, but the highlight of the place is this stall selling all sorts of delicacy serve with crabs. We wanted to try, but the foodcourt was kinda packed to the brim during dinner, so hell, next time perhaps.

This is one of the ponds found there. You can find ugly-looking Kois, longkang fish, turtles, tortoises there...

even Swans!

and Ducks!

This particular pond was filled with Lotus plants. You know why the Buddhists particularly use the Lotus plants as offerings to the Gods? Or why Buddhists like to associate the Lotus flowers in their teachings? Well, the true face is that lotus is one of Buddhism's most significant symbols. The lotus has its roots in mud but blossoms into a beautiful flower. Similarly, though an individual may be impure, there is the potential to gain enlightenment and the perfect state. Now you know?

See, there were so many families there. They brought their kids to enjoy the natural environment. Some came well-equipped with picnic tables and chairs, picnic baskets, portable radio, mags and books. Kinda inspired me and the hubby to do the same one of these Sundays..hehe..juz me and him.

The symphony hall where they hold concerts and plays. This chao uncle knew that I wanna take pic, purposely station himself in front of my cam. Pui pui pui!

So how? Nice not? Free go and check it out lah! It's FOC, no need to pay entrance fees!

Reality Hurts

Somehow last week was rather unproductive. Minus the 1 day AL and 1.5 days' of MC, I've only worked for like 2.5 days officially last week?

Did bring my lappy home to do finish some backlog work over the weekend, but the inner me was protesting furiously cos' I really need more rest to recover from the India virus. Haha..what a lamer. I think I was juz being plain lazy.

So there I was, down at the gynae with the hubby finally on Sat noon. The appointment was set 12.20pm but my turn was called only an hour later. I was browsing the numerous baby photos on the walls of his clinics, so many congratulatory and thank-you cards with chubby and cutey baby photos attached to them. Suddenly, I felt so envious of these mummies and daddies and really hope that I can join their club soon. The maternity instinct juz started to kick in like that without any warning, and I was crossing my fingers and toes hard that I am really fertile after the gynae's diagnosis.

And there we had a short casual chat with the gynae before I was shown to the bed and do my ultrascan of my uterus. There was some discomfort as he shoved up this cold metal rode up my vaginal and began to tell me what is what inside me. I saw my left and right ovaries, I saw my eggs sitting comfortably in my ovaries, and I saw my womb.

Verdict?

Well, everything seems normal, my cervix looks "good", but there is a patch of fibroid outside the wall of the womb. He said it is benign and the fibroid will not affect my chances of getting pregnant as long as it doesn't grow inwards to the womb area where the placenta is going to be held. They call this area "garden", and the outside area as "rocks and stones". So my fibroid grew at the "rocks and stones" area, if it is inside the garden, I'm doomed.

Sigh, so depressing! To know that you don't have a perfect womb inside you.

Yes, though he said that I'm fine, but there's this possiblity that the Fibroid will grow bigger in size and it is beyond any control that it can be subdued. He encouraged us to have babies as early as possible to avoid any possible complications in the future (lucky we want to see him in time!). Cos' to remove fibroids means that future pregnancies will be put at risk due to the instability of the womb after the surgery.

All thanks to my mummy lor. I've discovered that I have inherited quite a number of her genes till date when my sis didn't even get to share some load from me.

1. Her white hair genes
2. Her boobs (read: B cup, not C or D ok?!)
3. High blood pressure (though not relatively high, but juz monitoring my diet to avoid being in her shoes)
4. FIBROIDS!!!

And it's so amazing. I took a glimpse of the ultrascan result I did last year and realised that I had a good womb, no sight of fibroids. Just a difference of one year and this stupid irritating muscle fibre starts to grow.

I is worried...so worried..

Not easy to be a woman lor..

I want to be man in my next life..

BLEH.