Just a Little Rant

Feeling so much better now and boy I'm looking forward to the little getaway this weekend..checking out the Sentosa website on new stuff to explore during our free time there..I think I want to catch "Songs of the Sea", a show with live cast and pyrotechnics by the beach. Must pay one leh, $6 per person, first come first serve basis somemore. Better be good man.

Also wanna check out Cafe Del Mar, but a pity I can't dress in my bikinis anymore, would love to sunbathe and sip cocktail, enjoying the seabreeze and music :(

Just checked my corporate mails. Nabeh, one stupid Indian is still hoovering over the email I have sent to reject the sponsorship for his event. I'm not racist but I just hate Indians. We are afterall his vendor, and of cos' we reserve the right to sponsor or reject, whichever we think it is right in aligning our corporate objectives. What USD15K sponsorship for a stupid themed event? I think it's merely squandering our money for R&R for his staff and resellers...I can't do lots with that kinda money!! And just becos' this Ah Neh has been promoted doesn't mean that he can speak with a swelling head and small brain?! These people seriously need to go through some kinda setbacks in the country to understand the proper way to be a better person. A bunch of losers..*pui*

GSS has started since last Fri and I haven't been to any malls yet. Urgh. This is so unlike me. I wanna get some new accessories and shoes to match the dress I'm wearing for the wedding dinner...hehe...maybe later..

MC

Finally went to see the doc yesterday cos' the flu got worst and was unbearable. I admit that I'm a real goo-niang and my tolerance for suffering is really low. Some people can pass this sick phase easily without seeing the doc by juz relying on natural remedies, but me? I have to give in to the pills and instant relieve. I hate it.

Anyway, doc gave me 2-days mc cos' I was also having a slight fever yday. Took the light medicine yday and felt much better today. Have since stopped taking them, resorting to drinking lots of water and taking more rest instead. Sigh. I hate being sick.

Nuff said. Juz itchy backside and tried on the 2 dresses I bought (before pregnant) for Ser's wedding this Sun. Perfect! They still fit! But the little bump seems obvious too..haha. Juz need to hunt for some matching accessories and perhaps shoes too and I'm ready to go! Now..which dress should I wear ah? The beige or the black one? Hmmm.....

Ser has been rather cold towards us lately. Not sure was it becos' of the previous incident, but she doesn't seem to want to share her joy with me the other day when we met in msn. Initially she did "book" me as one of her jie meis...but now that I'm preggie, there wasn't any indications from her though I keep asking if she needed any help from me for her big day. Her answer? "It's ok, thanks. I don't DARE to ask a pregnant lady for help." It was so hostile, so cold. I wonder what I did wrong?

*Aaahh...CHOO!*

Am slightly under the weather since yesteday. All thanks to Hubby Goh who has passed his cold virus to me. Being pregnant means my immune system ain't as strong as before, so more prone to virus attacks than usual...*sniff sniff*

Didn't want to go see the doc cos' it's not good for the bb inside. No wonder they always claim that 妈妈最伟大, they always have to sacrifice things like that in protection for their little ones. I is so miserable now, the nose keeps ah-choo non-stop and drip like a running tap. I wish it's all cleared up by tomorrow...pls pls...

I think I need a nap now, be back soon.

I'm Still Alive!

Yes, I'm still very much alive, juz that work is piling up and I didn't have the motivation to blog there and then.

My lappie was in A&E for a major operation for a couple of days due to virus attack. Boy am I glad that my data and files are still safe and sound, and my IT guy didn't have to format the entire disk.

And it's confirmed that I'm not going to Manila, nor BKK. I could have juz went ahead with the travelling plans, but after the incident earlier this month, I felt that there's no point risking my health for the company. As long as I've done my part in coordinating the event here, I don't see a need to be physically abusing myself in Manila, running like a mad dog managing the event with a buldging tummy with my kah kias while the bosses all they do is to delegate, delegate, and delegate..

You guys know how much I LUP BKK. But this time, I'm gonna give the review meeting and company trip a miss. I think I will be good and just stay at home to enjoy life without coming to work or perhaps pop by the gym and do some light exercises to build up my cardio. Yeah, think I will just do that...why not? I don't want to end up going there and bother my colleagues to take care of me...next year perhaps...with Hubby Goh of cos'...we will make it happen :)

It was little Ethan boy's 3rd birthday bash last Sunday at Hotel Phoenix Cafe. That boy is hell of a darling, boy is afterall a boy, he adores the spiderman toy one of the relatives bought for him that he kept playing with it and forgot about dinner! Oh, he was also very sticky to Megen jiejie, following her wherever she goes, the little duo was the centre of attraction for the entire night, entertaining all of us with their silly acts.

Aunty Sandy came over to the Chicken Rice buffet spread and started to ask if I'm already pregnant (yeh...no one knows about it except Cousin Theresa). The moment I said yes and she went like, "Ya lah, no wonder I see that you have expanded a little". Thanks ah, for that comment you made, I became more conscious of my body lor.. But it's true lah, I also noticed that my forearms have grown bigger and my bulge getting larger. Gosh, it's only 13 weeks, what will I look like 10 weeks later? I don't want to even think about it...haha.

Yeah, a Public Holiday next week, so looking forward to it...I want a break, a well deserved break!

Naughty Little One

Been so swarmed with work lately. Buddy colleague has finally left last Fri, leaving me with no lunch kakis anymore..boo hoo. That smart alec did the right move to leave now, it's now or never, he doesn't have any commitments anyway, so well, good for him.

Managed to squeeze some time on Monday to go for the 12th week scan and checkup. BB now measures 6.16cm at 12 weeks 1 day. Still a little long as compared to the rest, but I guess it's ok lah, we have to thank our genes for that. Dr Chan also did NT scan on it, the neck thickness measures at 1.44mm, so it's low risk for DS, which is a relief for us. The lazy little one seems to be sleeping during the scan, was lying face down and legs crossing, with occasional movements on the legs and hands. Can't tell the gender yet as its legs were hindering and the angle it was lying on was too much of a challenge for Dr Chan to detect if bb has a "third" leg or not. BB's nose has developed too, by next month, its ears and mouth should be fully formed too.

Somehow the gender doesn't matter to me anymore, what's important is the bb is healthy and born full term. After seeing Jasmine dear's premature bb a fortnight ago, it suddenly dawns me that a healthy diet and routing exercising are so so important to ensure nothing goes wrong on the pregnancy. Even an all-time low blood gal like her can get attacked by high blood pressure at the 7th month of her pregnancy, so what's not possible?

Anyway, weight gain has been on the rise...I measured 1.2kg heavier than 4 weeks ago, a total of 1.9kg gain for the 1st trimester, haha...way to go gal!

Embarking on the 2nd trimester soon...yay!

Happy Mother's Day!

Mother's Day will never be the same again next year, for by then I would be a proud mummy of little junior Goh :)

Though has been a little down over the whole saga in the office, I decided to take things easy as I do not want to give birth to a grouchy bb eventually. I cried for a good 10mins during the shower as I needed an outlet to let go my disappointment and sadness...perhaps it was also the changing hormones that made my tears go on and on after the shower with hubby Goh cuddling me in his arms on bed. Way to go, I told myself! This setback is not gonna make me a loser in front of those "animals" and I swore that the day I threw my letter on their faces, they are the real losers, not me.

Anyway, on a brighter note. We had a bbq session last evening with the usual gang. It was good hanging out with the gals and we are so looking forward to the short getaway at Sentosa in 2 weeks' time. Weeeee! We are so going to pamper ourselves with pretty mani and pedicure on Sun afternoon before attending Serene's wedding! Just can't wait....

Just turned 12weeks yesterday. So far everything's ok and tmr going for the 12th week scan at Dr Chan's. Tummy is getting bigger though, tried to hid the bulge with looser tops, but still, it seems to visible that people started to ask, especially last night. Sigh...give up. Hubby Goh will always lament, "Dear, you're PREGNANT lor, so you dun have to hide..there's nothing to hide." Duh, I just hate to look BIG can? Just the other day a colleague commented that my budge is showing too early cos' I'm only 3 months preggie, if going in this rate, I might end up with a super duper big tummy during the last trimester. Hey, thanks fren...I dun need such warning this time k? The tummy is not something I can control lor. I've already started exercising walking up the stairs...19 floors ok? I have to achieve this at least twice a week though..

Aye...back to work before proceeding for dinner with MIL and family....have a good day folks!

Lagging..

I know I haven't been blogging lately. Been extremely busy and so much things happened during the absence of writting.

There was a blunder made at work caused by a major miscom. All fingers were pointed to my team and I ended up having to shoulder the blame together with another co-worker. I supposed I should have been clear but that doesn't mean that it's not the other party's fault too. Somehow when things gone wrong, it's always the Marketing's problem, cos' we were negligent, we were careless, we jumped conclusion, etc. But it's never the Sales Team's fault. They will always be RIGHT.

And it doesn't help when the MD also sang the same song and joined in the ra-ra and called us monkeys and laughing stock in the email. What? So he's been hiring animals for his zoo or what? Somehow my respect for him has gone totally done the drain when he said those nasty words the other day. I wonder who's the the real monkey in the company?!

Anyway, I still remain my stance that it's not entirely my fault in this. Teamwork, the MD has stressed that we should all work as a team in the company during the last review meeting, but what the hell is teamwork now? Teamwork means we have to serve the Sales Team like gods and get all the shit and blame when things have gone wrong on the things we worked on? I'm demoralised and I don't think I wanna work in such unhealthy culture for long. We are only this small (as a company), but politics is everywhere! Even the boss supports the MD's "vision" and endorses the stupid culture, you tell me, how to survive long here?

I dunno, if only I'm not preggie, then perhaps I will start looking around for better opportunity out there. Juz got a call from an agency yday who wanted to recommend me to a job which he thinks will suit me "perfectly'. What a shame...I juz have to put up with all these crap, go for my maternity leave and hopefully when I'm almost ready to be back in the workface, there are abundance opportunities out there for me to choose from.

I know, wishful thinking...but well...at least I dare to dream about it la!