Demoralised

Work has been extremely demoralising eversince I am back from maternity.


Somehow the numerous changes and restructing in the department have created alot of confusion and lost of direction for all the team mates. Somehow we just feel that our jobscope does not only encompass marketing, we do alot of odd jobs like admin, operations, logistics, secretariat and more to name.


So much politics for only a small company like this. When monthly sales are not met, the blame just come conveniently to the marketing team and the sales team will start venting frustrations on us, cc emails to the entire world to pinpoint our faults, calling us nasty names (marketing gals are all half past six) and expects us to do wonders when things went beyond control. Does these people ever know what the word RESPECT means?


It's been tiring having to fight wars like this and somehow it made us all very paranoid now as we are always worrying if we have done anything wrong and if these barbarians are going to bark at us for nothing again. When we do something right, they assume that it's part of our duty to do so, and when we made just a teeny weeny bit of mistake, the entire world knows and we are condemned and blacklisted for life.

Somewhat somehow, someone in the company is suspecting that I'm job-hunting now and got to the ears of the MD. I swear I didn't share with anyone except one fellow close colleague whom I'm sure she will not bao toh. Have already narrowed down the list of people and well...it could be HER and who else. Recently she has been telling other colleagues things that are untrue about me, putting words into my mouth...just don't let me hear again and I swear I'm not going to make her life any easier in the company.

Sigh..Politics..if you can't beat them, JOIN them.

Good Weekend

Realised that I have been paying attention to Baby Garreth's blog and neglected my own eversince his birth. hehe..no choice lah, I make it a point to record down any milestones of him so that I will not regret for not doing so. So far, his blog has serve a very good memory of his monthly developments...it's so amazing that time really past so fast and he's a big boy now (4 months).

The past weekend has been really fulfilling. Not only we had a mini celebration when he turned 4 months last Saturday, I also decided to venture out alone with him since now he doesn't nap much in the afternoon. Brought him to Anchorpoint and Ikea, bought some stuff too. He was busy exploring the surroundings, so much so that he snoozed off in the Baby Bjorn carrier when we were at Ikea. It was not that bad afterall, didn't feel much strain or aches until when we reached home and I finally strapped him off the carrier. Keke.. I was lazy as well, though I brought the milk powder and hot water along, I purposely delayed his milk time by 1 hour cos' the cashier and cab queue was damn freaking long. Wanted to find a corner to quietly feed him, but decided not to cos he was only whimpering and wasn't crying...turned out that when we reached home and I placed him on his bed...he started to wail and actually gulped down the entire bottle of milk within 10mins! Haha...I'm so cruel.

Now, I'm planning for the next destination I will go with him this coming weekend (if Daddy is not free)...hehe..maybe this time we will venture to town??

Sigh..haven't gotten any news on the interviews I went....think sure gone case liao and have to send more applications out. Wonder if SY has any good news too? Wish her and me luck...hope we get a new job soon :)

Updates

It's been a hectic week...busy with work, busy with the little boy and busy preparing myself for the 2 interviews.

Turns out that work still sucks, bet it's gonna get worst since the boss is pregnant for the 2nd time. Yes..2nd time! How productive can she be? It only she can be as productive at work..urgghh...I better get my ass out of the company before her mood swings start to kick in and pass all the arrows to me..

As for Baby Garreth..he's quite a big boy now, turning 4 months in an exact 7 more days. No doubt, his pattern has changed again and this time, he has the habit of sleeping less in the day and turning in early in the night. Well, there are pros and cons lah...if he sleeps less during the day, my mum will not be able to do much as she has to keep an eye on him...if he sleeps early in the night, everyone gets to eat dinner properly when back home cos' need not waste time coaxing him to sleep like in the past. The down part is that if I had to return home later than 7.30pm, I will not get to "talk" or play with him and the only time I could bond with him is during his dream feed at 11pm but usually he will be dreamy and gulps down his milk within 10mins and then go back to his beauty sleep immediately.

Well, about the 2 interviews I went..I have this gut feeling that one of them is really no hope cos' the interviewer wanted someone who has the experience in e-marketing which I have yet the chance to explore. Not pinning all hopes for the other one, so I'll have to put more effort in job-hunting and keep my options open. Sigh..why like that?