Liar Liar Pants on Fire

HE told a lie which broke my heart.

I cried last night cos' never did I think that he will do such an irresponsible thing. We have been together for 6 yrs, and married for coming to 3 yrs, but yet, he told such a big lie juz for a moment of folly?

I was hurt, deeply hurt and crying as I stroke BB Goh (tummy) hoping that he will not be affected by my sadness. HE keep saying that he's sorry, but what's sorry when the damage is already done? HE said he lied cos' he knows if he asked, I will never let him go, but is THAT so important that he has to resort to lying to me?

I'm disappointed as I've always thought that he's a responsible man till yday. I'm upset as I've never allowed lies to surface between us. I have been opened to him all these while and I would expect him to do the same. I never like lies, especially from my loved ones...I never like the feeling of having my trust betrayed. The feeling just sucks.

HE assured me that HE will not lie again or repeat his mistake. Is that a guarantee?

Though the lie did not bring any drastic damages, but still, it was a LIE.

HE was all sorrowful and eyes moist with tears when he saw me weeped in bed. Mt heart wrenched each time he tried to explain...I just couldn't hear anymore for I know that I will not trust him 100% again next time. It's sad, but this is how it is going to work for now. You want me to trust you, then gain back the trust lost!

Sigh...feeling all zombie today cos' didn't sleep well last night. If only it's a nightmare and everything's back to normal when I woke up this morning.