My Poor Boy

Brought Baby Garreth back to the PD again yesterday cos' his phlegm and cough condition did not improve after 3 days and have been coughing really badly in the night. It pains me to see him coughing so hard, especially in the night, and I could't do anything but just to hold him close my chest and pat him on the back to soothe him...there was one night where he coughed really badly and I felt so heartache that I held him and cried in the middle of the night. He is so tiny and yet he already has to suffer all these illness. The PD diagnosed him as having sensitive nose (inherited from me!) or a mild case of flu. I'm quite confused if these are the two possibilities cos' if it's sensitive nose, would it have led to so much phlegm in his throat? We haven't been really bringing out, how would he get flu? Unless to say that he got infected when Megen jie jie was having a bad cough sometime back, or was it my brother in law who passed him the virus when he came to pick up my sis after visiting the doc to get his half-day MC for his flu? Sigh...I really don't know.

Anyway, this time the PD prescribed him with a course of antibiotics. If it wasn't him coughing so badly, I wouldn't have wanted to give him antibiotics, afterall he's still a newborn, only 2 months+. He was pretty ok last night, with no cough after milk, but this morning when he finished his feed, he started to cough really badly and it felt so upsetting again. Going to monitor his condition these two days, if things are not getting any better, will have to seek second opinion from another PD liao. Aye..it's a good thing that Hubby Goh can claim all these expenses, else really shiong ah..

Sometimes I really wonder if it's really my fault for stop breastfeeding, cos' they always claim that breastmilk is a good source of antibodies and babies will not fall sick easily. My parents also claimed that milk powder generates phlegm in a baby, so maybe that's why he's having so much phlegm also....gosh...is it really all my fault??

So sad.