No More Moo Moo Cow

Have finally made the painful decision to stop expressing breastmilk for Baby Garreth yesterday. Supply has been low as I didn't have the time to pump and also for the fact that my milk quality has deteriorated; there has been more foremilk then hindmilk, so no wonder the boy is always not full after a feed and demands for more milk more often. It's kinda sad that I can't provide the best for him, but as what the sister said, although it's healthier to give breastmilk than formula milk, still it doesn't mean that babies drinking formula milk are not healthy. And most important of all, happy mummy = happy baby, so I would not want to fuss or stress over no supply of breastmilk for my son. I'm happy that now that I could spend the pumping milk time on some other stuff, rather than fret and keep squeezing my two breasts for more milk and more milk.

Mum has been a great help so far. She has started to come over my place to helpout in the afternoon after she has cooked lunch for me. But usually I will keep the food for dinner instead so that Hubby Goh and I no need to scratch our heads to think what to dabao everytime. Feel kinda guilty for making mum so busy, she not only has to cook for us, she also has to take the bus and bring it over to my place as soon as she's done. Then once here, she will try her best to free me from taking care of Garreth boy so that I can catch some rest/nap for the "duty" at night. It's such a good fortune that I have such a GREAT mum! Btw, mum said that once I'm back to work (which is pretty soon, 1 Feb), she will consider bunking over at my place to help take care of Baby Garreth so that we don't have to lug him here and there or buy extra sets of his stuff to her place which is a total waste of money. How nice..in fact, I have been secretly praying that she will come stay with us if situation allows (no need to keep on putting up with my dad's stupiak temperament) and well, my prayer is answered!

Little Megen is put under her mummy's care now and poor gal has been sobbing at night cos' she misses granny (and sleeping with granny). Mum can't bear to let her go too, afterall she has been looking after her for 5 years, but no choice lor, she has another grandchild who needs her attention more than Megen. Now we are all wondering when sis gives birth, who's gonna help her take care of the baby since mine will only be 8 months old by then. Geesh..nobody dares to think about it...YET.

Gosh, it's been about nearing 3 weeks that I do not get a full night's sleep. Baby Garreth wakes up about once or twice for his feeds and usually I'm the one doing the "duty" as Hubby Goh has to work the next day. But he has been sweet too, volunteering to feed him on certain nights when he sees me so worn out. We have thought of a strategy to eliminate the night feeds for the boy, but we can only embark on the "project" when he turns 2 months or so. Aye..let's juz hope we have the heart to do it and if so, it will be successful.

Alright, gotta go..he's awake and wailing for his milk now...till then.