Nightmares

Been having nightmares lately, not sure why.

Just yesterday, I woke up breaking in cold sweat in the morning, relieved that hubby goh was sleeping beside me. I dreamt of bumping into him at a food court where he was holding to a gal's hand at a food stall, ordering food. He was holding her hands real tight, and when I approached him and told him to let go her hands, he refused and shoo-ed me away furiously. I cried and cried and ran away but he juz didn't bother to chase or call me. And back at home, I was waiting for his return and when he eventually did, I confronted him on that gal and he told me that he has been actually seeing "Yizhen" for quite a while but he is willing to give up that affair and come back to me. Yes, I remember so clearly that the name is "Yizhen". I broke down again and shook my head, cos' I know that once a strayed man, is always a stray man. I know that I will not trust him again and there will be no point of getting back together. Then I keep crying and crying...and I could feel the heartaches and wrenches....it seems just so real.

Sad eh? I know.

I'm crossing my fingers that it's just a nightmare. Hubby goh called me silly when I related the nightmare to him. Haha...it could be I missed him too much when I was in India. *blush*

Anyway, been troubled by something lately. Some disappointment. And I'm going to get a confirmation/answer this Friday. I hope everything is fine so that I can see some light and pursue again. Pray hard for me yah?